I recently went on vacation to New Zealand, and I knew
beforehand that they are extremely strict about what food you can bring into
the country – more specifically, they don’t allow anything. They are concerned
enough that they search for food with X-rays and trained dogs, and if they find
something, even if it was provided on the plane, it’s an automatic $400 fine.
I have to admit this caused me a moment of panic. I like to
be prepared for travel with plenty of food, so as not to be at the mercy of
whatever I can buy at the airport or they might serve on the plane. But in this
case, I could only bring enough to get me onto the New Zealand flight; I didn’t
want to risk having something extra that I would have to throw away.
Imagine, then, my chagrin when partway through the travel I
discovered a Luna bar lurking in the pocket of my raincoat. I haven’t the
faintest idea why it was there, but at 10 a.m., as we taxied into the Auckland
airport, I had to decide – to eat or not to eat it?
I wasn’t particularly hungry, as we’d been given breakfast
just a couple of hours before. But I also didn’t know how long it would be
until lunch, and despite everything (such as reminding myself that I can let
food go to waste or to my waist), I still have a hard time throwing food away.
So – I ate the Luna bar.
It worked out okay, since I didn’t get lunch until 2 (by
which point I was hungry again), but that was not the last of my dilemmas. I
was fine in Auckland, where I was staying with a cousin whose eating habits
were similar to mine, but from there I was going on a 7-day tour of the South
Island.
I did pack some snacks to bring with me (thankfully New
Zealand could care less what you bring for food between the two islands), but I
hadn’t quite counted on the flexible nature of mealtimes on the tour. Breakfast
was fairly set, either 7 or 7:30, but other meals were more challenging.
My first day, for instance, I joined the group at 11:30, but
for various reasons we didn’t get lunch until 3:30. By then I had gone through
most of my snacks for that day, and I wanted to hold out so I’d be hungry for lunch.
But I let it go too far. By the time we arrived, all I could think about was
eating. I wasn’t interested in conversation, or admiring the beautiful
farmhouse we were in. I filled my plate and even went back for seconds, since it was such a lovely meal. Finally
I felt satisfied.
Then our hostess brought out dessert.
By then it was around 4, and I suddenly remembered we were
also having a meal provided that night as part of the tour.
I was chagrined. Despite having just finished teaching an “Am I Hungry?” workshop,
I had not handled the situation the way I would have hoped. I had to rapidly
decide again if I should continue eating.
I was at the crux of many of the things we talk about in
AIH? as reasons why we sometimes eat even when we’re not hungry:
- The meal was included in my trip cost – I wanted to get full benefit
- Our hostess was very gracious and had made the apple-walnut cake with fruit and nuts from their own trees – I didn’t want to offend her
- Everyone else was having dessert – I didn’t want to start our time together by being the one dissenter
- It was probably a once-in-a-lifetime experience – when would I ever back in New Zealand, eating such fresh food at a farmhouse?
I didn’t have time to think it through that clearly. Before
I knew it, a piece of cake was in front of me. Again, I ate it, without
consciously having decided that was what I wanted to do.
Three hours later, I found myself again agonizing over the
prospect of dinner. The perch and lobster (what they call crayfish) were
fresh-caught the day before by other members of the group, and again it was
free, once-in-a-lifetime, etc.
Then I started laughing at myself. Why was I making this so
complicated and stressful? I knew I wasn’t truly hungry, but that I would eat a
little to taste, and that once the meal was past, I could wait to eat again
until I was hungry.
From that point, it was much easier and more enjoyable. My snacks
allowed me to avoid getting to the ravenous stage again, and while I did
overeat sometimes, I generally didn’t eat again after that until I was actually
hungry. That sometimes meant I simply sat with a drink while the others ate, or
ate when no one else did, but I didn’t let it worry me.
In the end, I don’t regret anything I had – I just regret
having spent so much energy that first day fretting needlessly. But it’s a good
reminder that I, too, am still learning.
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